In The Name Of God, the merciful, the Compassionate

I cant underestand; in spite of realizing my goals, why I am acting against them. I have very clear targets, but I do everything unlike them. I think I"m really mad. I wish I had never do that things; I wish I were unaccostomed to them. they made me sad. Now it is very difficult to return to my real life; I"m really sorry for myself. When I am going to be steadfast in context of my goals? I can act in the way of my best favorites and be the best, or do contrary to what I really love and be the worst

I have no time at this moment and I cant continue my text, but I should remind you that it is very hard to be resolute and abandon what you have used to do it. but it is worth attemping so much; sure it is